Check out my Youtube

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I put up a few vids, and I want you guys to check them out!!

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I have to tell you guys something... It is very serious and life altering. You may or may not know this...but... I have... OJD!!! HA HA did I scare you? That is right I have Obsessive Jonas Disorder!! I love every second of it too!! I stayed up all night listening to JB music and doing stuff JB related. Check out my new Myspace profile (http://www.myspace.com/abnormalchicksta666) if you are already my friend. And if you re not, be sure to request me. Just make sure you put your name in the request so I know who you are. That is all for now. Bye Bye!!

SUPER DUPER HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!

My aunt sat me down and talked to me. There was a lot of silence, but all in all, she said that she loves and accepts me!! Like the title says, I'm super duper happy!!

=D

I told one of my friends at school today. It turns out that he is gay. I am not going to say who it is because I promised to him that I wouldn't tell anyone. I think it'll be good for the both of us to have someone who is going through the same stuff.

I am still a little upset, though. My aunt hasn't mentioned it. If we haven't talked about it by next week, then I will bring it up.

This is who I am. I am not going to pretend anymore. oh and I also told my friend and next door neighbor, Haley. :p

Avoidness

OK... So she came home from work and she came into my room, "I know you wanna talk but I have to go to Weight Watchers at 5."

I was kinda upset that she didn't want to talk about it right then, but I thought it would be fine cause we could talk when she came home. But I was wrong.

So she came home, right? And I thought that as soon as she came home that she would sit me down and talk to me. I was wrong. She brought in pizza, and called my uncle. She hasn't even mentioned it yet... Like I said... Avoidance...

I just want to know that she accepts me and that she isn't going to let this affect out relationship...

The Note

I wrote my aunt a note, detailing my sexuality and how I pray that she accepted me. I gave it to her just before she dropped me off for school today, and she will be home any minute. I am really worried about what is going to happen. I really want her to accept me and I don't want her to treat me as a different person.

I will post again as soon as she gets home and I talk to her...

No More Hiding

OK, I am not going to pretend anymore. I have changed it on my Myspace as well as my Facebook. It is out in the open. If you can not accept it, and you do not want to be my friend, then don't be because you are not a true friend to begin with if you won't accept me for who I am. I am the same person, I have always been, I am just not going to hide anymore.

My name is Anne-Maire, I am a 15 year old high school sophmore, and I am bisexual.

My First Poetry Post

My poetry really expresses my feelings, so please don't diss my writing no matter how bad it is... :p If you want to know about what I am going through that made me write these poems, you can e-mail me and if I trust you, I'll tell you. =D




Love Me

You say you love me,
You say you will except me.
You say you will always care.
But as soon as the truth comes out,
Who I really am,
Will you stay,
Or run away?
I am too afraid,
To let you know me.
I don't want to be rejected.
I pretend,
So that you will still love me.
Will you love me?
I am different,
And yet not.
If you discover,
Don't let it change your view.
I am the same girl,
You always knew.
I am still Anne-Marie,
Except now the truth is out.
No more masks,
This is the true me.
If you are the person I think you are,
You'll still love me.


Truth

Truth,
The hardest thing to comprehend.
The hardest thing to let out.
You want to hide,
The truth is not accepted.
You think no one would understand,
But you never let it out.
How will you know,
Unless you take the risk?
Another piece of truth :
It is harder than it seems.
You can not just scream it top the clouds.
Don't let fear hold you back.
If they don't accept you,
Them they were never worth your time.
If someone loves you,
As they say they do,
Then they will not walk away.
They will accept you,
In every way.
It's not OK,
To live a lie.
Stick to the saying,
"The truth will set you free".


Be Who You Really Are

Be who you really are.
It's not alright,
To hide.
Slowly come out of the shadows.
True friends will never leave.
Family will always be there.
Showing who you are,
Is the best way to weed out the fakers,
Lairs,
Manipulators,
Wastes of breath.
You are who you are,
A unique individual.
There is no such thing as normal,
So don't strive for it.
You only have one life,
One chance to do it right.
Don't waste it pretending,
Acting.
Be who you really are!!


I hope you liked them!! Feel free to leave comments!!

Fighting...Once Again...

My doctor told my aunt to go out and buy this nose spray for me because I'm sick. Just so you know, the spray is just saltwater... I was trying to tell my aunt no that I didn't want to take it. She wouldn't listen. She tried to grab my laptop and she dropped it on the ground and the battery fell out. I also think it got a scratch. I got a red mark on my arm from us struggling over it.

If we get in fights this bad that reduce me to tears, and they are just over saltwater, how am I supposed to feel like I can come to her for things?

I'm just out of my mind. I just feel like she only sees my flaws, and when I try to tell her how I feel, she shuns it. Of course when I try to tell her she shuns it, she won't listen and goes off on a "I listen to you...blah blah blah."...

And I know what she is going to do. She is going to call my dad and tell him her side, in which she did nothing wrong. She will probably put this in the update report for the judge, and they will never even see my half.

Is life supposed to be this hard???

Blah

I am sick yet again... I have a sore throat, a stuffy nose, a head ache and a back ache, and I only slept 4 hours last night... Blech... I just hope that I feel better by the time school starts on Monday...

I came up with a New Years Resolution for myself : I, Anne-Marie Brown, will learn to love myself before I try to love anyone else. This will not be an easy thing for me to do. I have very low self esteem as it is... But I know deep down that I am a beautiful person, and I want other people to have a chance to see that beauty...

The new year has been going alright I guess... I haven't done that much besides watch movies, chat online, and get sick. I am hoping that I will be able to get back in the school mode without too much effort; I don't want to have to take geometry again in a new school next year, and there are only 2 weeks left of classes...

I suppose that is the latest from the life of Anne...