House Is Not A Home

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have been kinda busy. As I said in my first post, my mother died on February 15th of this year. The two of us were already living with my aunt, so I decided to stay with her. Things were great at first, but now things are going downhill. Fights are becoming more and more common, and they are increasing in intensity. I feel that if I don't leave, it will ruin our relationship. I love my aunt to death,and I will do whatever it takes to make sure that we don't end up hating each other. The only other person I can live with is my father. He has slight anger issues. He used to hit me when I was little (he hasn't since I was 12) and his wife is a really controlling person who hates me. I also don't know what I will do about getting to school because as of now my aunt drives me. There is also a diet thing to be worried about. I am a vegetarian, and I don't know if my dad will want to spend the extra money to support it.

So...Yea I have a lot of thoughts right now...There are pros and cons for each household...Life is confusing...

Being Sick

This weekend, my throat was really sore. I tried to go to school today, but by the end of first block, I felt like I was going to pass out. My aunt drove me home, and I slept, and slept...and slept. I was asleep for about 5 hours today. My throat is still killing me, and I have a cough. I really hate being sick because I can't afford to miss any school... Well, I'm going to get off of the computer before my aunt yells at me and says that I'm putting my germs all over the keys. I'm sorry this entry was so short, but I'll put a much longer one up once i feel better.

Random Talking

So, here I am on my aunts laptop at 9:53 at night. I feel as if it is midnight, but I do not want to go to sleep. My aunt will be gone all day tomorrow, so I will be able to mess around in the house alone for 9 hours. I am going to go to this store near my house in the early afternoon, Sam's, and I'm going to get 2 large Amp energy drinks and 3 pixie sticks. I will be at home, alone, and sugar high. That is going to be a recipe for disaster. Oh well. I deserve some alone time. I feel like people have been suffocating me because of everything that has happened in the last year.

I had a Geometry test today...Hopefully I did well...I feel like I did alright, but that usually means I do bad...I guess I'll see on Monday. I got my World History test back today after about a week of waiting, and I got a 96!! My teacher, Mr. Neilson, said my essay that went with the test was almost flawless. Considering that I failed last year, I think I did very well.

Well, my aunt is gong to yell at me any minute to get off, so i guess today's entry will be a short one. I'll post again soon, so keep checking in!!

First Blog Post Ever!!

Yep...This is my first blog post. I am not exactly sure what to write about, seeing as this is my first, so I'll just say some things about my life.

I go to a school that we call MVHS. I am a sophomore, and I am semi-smart. This semester, my classes are English, World History, Chorus (every other day), Study Hall (every other day), and Geometry in order. I took World History last year, but I sort of failed by 3 points. However, let me just point out that the grading system in my school really sucks. You have to get at least a 70 to get a D. I know. DUMB!! I am doing a lot better this year. I have 2 A's, 1 B and 1 C as of now. I wish there were grades for Study Hall...But then again, I would probably get a D, and that would look bad on my transcripts...

I have had a hard life so far. it is not all bad, but it has been petty tough. I was only one year old when my parents separated. My older brother, Josh, and I lived with my mom until I was about 5, and then we had to move in with my father because my mom had to go into alcoholic rehab. When I was half way through third grade, my dad told me that I had the choice of moving, my brother said no and I said yes. However, he warned me that their was something wrong with my mom. When I first saw her, I cried. She now had scoliosis. She was living with her boyfriend and I moved in. I had a tough time in middle school because I was the biggest girl in my class. Everyone always picked on me for being "fat". I was terrorized all through elementary school.

On the summer after I graduated elementary school, my mother told me that my now step-father kicked us out. With no options, we moved up to N.H. with my aunt. I started school 3 weeks late. My middle school life was a lot like everyone else's, except with a little bit more lies and pain than others. In my freashman year of high school, I heard the most depressing news of my life. My mother got lung cancer. I spent the next 6 months caring for her as much as possible. On February fifteenth, my mom died. I had a series of breakdowns at school, and a few of my friends got sick of me. Towards the end of the year, I started to return to normal, but the pain will never go away. Also, my grandfather passed away on July tenth, so this has been a tough year for me, but thanks to the support of my friends, I have made it through.

OK...This is getting kind of long, so I guess I'll end for now. I will be giving you updates at least once a week, so be sure to check it out!!